Watch, because tonight as we dance all the lies and torture will peal off of us as a snake shall shed it’s life away.
For you have not forsaken me. Nor have you forsaken her. For you have forsaken yourself, in every aspect of this painful day to day treatment you speak of!
Your heartbeat sounds like a drum corpse, with only the low ends coming through the speakers! And I love you for that.
I need stability.
I need professionalism.
I need to know that you are there for me.
I need my family.
I need my drums.
I need my friends.
I need to know.
I need to travel.
I need moby dick.
I need that part of my life back.
I need to keep faith in myself and GOD.
I need to know that everythings going to be ok.
This is insane! I never thought this day would seriously come. Today is a day just like any other but just a little bit different, today I woke up with something missing. Something so great, this thing I speak of I cannot tell you what it is. But just know that it has brought me so much joy and happiness that I will never ever forget! You are still my baby my beautiful flower that I watered every single day and I watched you grow into something more beautiful! Cherish your passion don’t ever let it go! Hold on to your dreams, and don’t let anyone or anything strip them from you! I can only pray that this door that is about to close will only open up ten other new doors for me. Pray for me cause only GOD knows I need help! I love you so much an you will always have a special place in my heart! I love you niggas with all my heart! Docking and feltching for life!
GOD! What the fuck is wrong with people?
It’s kind of weird. This is the first time for this kind of feeling to overcome my domain. I just arrived home from tour and I feel as if this statue of a house is not really my place of warmth and comfort and I feel as if I need to be on the road I can’t be here right now I simply just am not feeling this! I’m homesick from the open road where nobody can tell me how I have to live my life, where I’m free. I do what I do!
July 4, 2009
One of the best days of my life and one of th saddest cause it had to end.
Until next tour when the mayhem shall begin again!
Pray for me!
My name is Josh I’m pretty fucking cool and I’m really nice just don’t fuck with me or I’ll rock your snot box! I’m white but I wish I was black and had an Afro. Is that weird? I listen to all kinds of music but I prefer RAP! I don’t care what you think about me or all of your cool friends for that matter! I’m not very scholastic. Haha school was a huge joke for me. I play drums in a band called ” Can You Keep A Secret” I have been pretty much everywhere in the world besides a bunch of places! lol. I enjoy getting tattooed, I love all of my family & my friends! They mean the world to me. I really enjoy sex maybe a little too much! If that’s even possible! As meat loaf would say “sex, drums, and rock and roll” I love women, every single part about a womens body is so sexy to me! This is kinda just a rammble nothing in specific order….. I’ve had a few girlfriends but they just haven’t seemed to work for me, maybe it’s me maybe it’s them I don’t know nor do I give a fuck! The way I look at it is I just haven’t found one that’s cool enough to roll deep with a nigga like my self lol.. I drink, I smoke, I am a big ball of fucking awesome and if you know me you know that! My mom is my best friend, and always will be she is the shit, coolest mama in the world! Love you mama! I’m not really afraid of much except maybe some gangs. Well here I am this is me, any questions?
As I sit and ponder on this long ride and as my life passes me by so quickly. I come to grips with my inner eye and there has been a blockage in my view for a while now! I don’t know how to get rid of it, I’m trying, but it just won’t seem to go away. This is supposed to be the time of my life where nothing should matter to me, but it does! Why won’t you just go away? As for now I need to clear my mind, body and soul and focus on the now not the before! Hopefully this is just a stepping stone…..
VA Beach I’m here!